Last week, I told you guys a story about myself. I said a lot and I am sure you all are wondering why I am talking about myself. Well, I just want to encourage everyone out there. Life is not a bed of roses. You must struggle and sweat out yourself to make it. From birth to wherever you are now, you must put in all your efforts. Trust me, people will come for you, bad way, good way and the ugliest way. Its for you to bend or stand upright and move on.
I have been punished in the most awful way, people will see me and say so many bad stuffs about me. The worst is that I don’t know them, I have never seen them before, and they open their mouth to say hurtful stuffs about me. I am a nice girl and I try to do good to everyone around me. I want them to understand me, but they don’t, they prefer to make me look like fool. I remember a day when I was going out, it was a long time ago, I had to go to the bus-stop to catch the bus. I stayed for a while waiting for a bus. I stood there and was chatting with a friend of mine who stays there and preaches the gospel to people who walks by side. Few minutes later, I decided to catch the bus and go to where I wanted to go. As I got a bus, I was trying to climb and enter the bus. It was difficult, the bus was too high and because of my legs and I had to take my time to enter the bus. The people in the bus were unhappy that I was taking time. A particular lady, very fair woman insulted my life. She didn’t understand what I was going through. My challenges were difficult, I was just slow, but this lady insulted me and called me a prostitute. My skirt was short, she saw it as a sign to seduce men. That was my work according to her. I was embarrassed, everyone was looking at me and yes, I had a problem. I had no choice but to leave the bus and cried on the shoulders of my dear friend. It was painful and I couldn’t stand it. That moment, I knew that I was broken down, a problem which clearly, I didn’t create for myself at all.
I really don’t know what the world out there is going to say, they see what they want to see, they hear stuff, and it moves round, of course gossip. These set of people don’t know my story. They don’t know what I have been through, from one bad and failed relationship to another, trying to fit in and not feel left out, I wear a smile or a laugh to hide my pain from the world. They don’t know anything, I am the one going through the pain, crying out my eyes to sleep and be happy in all ways I can be.
I am strong, I don’t give up, I don’t put people’s words in my head, it will only destroy me. I listen to what they have to say, and I have thought of killing myself and let them mourn over me. I have destroyed my mind with negativity because of how they talk to me, and I am down to the ground. I have felt alone and not worth of love, attention, and care. Yes, it has been hard, difficult, I have failed and hid myself from the world. But now, I say, no more. I love myself; I am beautiful, intelligent, smart, and more. If you don’t want to associate with me, its fine. We don’t need a lot of people in our lives. If only, we had one person who truly loves us, then damn the world. When you shine, when you are happy, looking good and enjoying, they will shut up their mouth, it will be amazing seeing their faces in shame and they have nothing to say or do about it. As for me, I am going to leave my life to the fullest, forget what the world is saying, try to overcome my fears and challenges and always look beautiful and priceless and worth to be a great girl. I will keep smiling and make myself happy. Success is coming my way and I will arise and soar and be the shiny star I will be.
This is my story. I hope you enjoy it and learnt a whole lot. Thank you for allowing me to share my story. Remember FORGET THE CHALLENGES. I am Ruth Ukachi and this is my story. Thank you.